On Saturday, after my day at photography at suntec city, I went to had a drink at orchard’s mcCafe with shikin. I tot of going home after that but shikin dragged me to meet her friends with much persuading. And so, I went. It was 6.40 in the evening and I tot it was still ok for me to be out. But, I received a dreadful phonecall from my mom. She shouted at me to go home and said I don’t need to go home if I’m already a grown up. I can pack my bag and leave and never return. I was hurt by that relevation. I was shocked as it was as if I wasn’t out that late before. And so, I rushed back home with fear of coming home but with that, I still got reprimanded. I thought she would be happy with the fact that I actually listened to her and went home straight. Some kids don’t even bother if their mom force them to go home. They just ignore their parents. But I guess I was wrong. SO wrong.
And so, the day continued with reprimands. First, I opened a package meant for me. She accused me of opening my sister’s package without asking, whose is it. She just made accusations and shouted, “WHY YOU OPEN YOUR SISTER’S PACKAGE?” I replied and said it was mine. That was still OK. Next, my lil sis was caught for playing with a watch. My mom shouted, “IMAH, Y U LEAVE YR WATCH LYING AROUND? SEE! YR SISTER IS PLAYING WITH IT” I went to check it out only to see that, it wasn’t my watch. It was my eldest sister’s watch. I was so sad that, they thought that everything was my fault.
And, today came, my aunts came just for an outing. And I was sleeping. In my mom’s room with my mom’s blanket. And so, my mom shouted at me, yet again, “IMAH!! WAKE UP! YOUR AUNTS ARE HERE! DON’T BE RUDE. U BETTER GET UP OR I’LL GIVE U A TIGHT SLAP. WAKE UP NOW!!!” I ignored her as I thought she was gonna stop after a while. But, I was wrong again. She still forced me to wake up and said, “I’M GONNA GIVE YOU A SLAP IF U DON’T WAKE UP NOW”. The way I type it it doesn’t sound harsh but imagining it it came from your mom whom u love. I feel so hurt. She even commented on me using her blanket and saying that I’m stinking her blanket. I wish, that was the end.
Hours later, when my 2nd sister passed me the turn to play pool, as I cant play pool on my comp, my 1st sister came saying that she needed to use the comp. I was like, WHAT THE FUCK!!! You needed the comp just when I was using the comp. I was pissed. Very pissed. We fought because I urged I wanted to use the comp and refuse to let her have her own way. Even so, my mom, of course, took her side. It was ok, alright. I don’t give a damn anymore. Then, my mom was cleaning the table and saw some flyers on the table and automatically assumed that I was the one that placed it there and it was my fault somehow.
This was what my mom said, “IMAH! Y U LEAVE YOUR FLYERS AROUND THE HOUSE? U BETTER PICK THEM UP NOW.” I was so UPSET and replied. “WHAT RUBBISH? THIS ARE NOT MINE!” Then my mom said about I’ve become rude after going poly and that I’ve changed and all. I don accept what she’s saying. Its not me who’ve changed. Its my family that has changed. They think I don’t know what I’m doing and that I’m still a kid who was born yesterday. My friends all have the freedom which I wish I had. My friend, I asked, don’t your mom scold for going home later? Guess what he said, Oh, I’m now 18. We have to be let go by our friends and be independent. U have to learn to live your life and take up responsibilities. I wish I had his parents whom trust him to make smart decisions unlike mine.
I feel like running from home or just run across a free road and wishing I get knocked down by a speeding car. What I feel cant be put down into words as I feel very awful right now. I feel that my soul has been sliced right in the heart. I’ve poured tears that I can’t produce anymore now. But, though, as I’m writing this, I’m still crying with a crying heart. I don’t know why.
emma hassan
fifth-may-eightyeight
republic polytechnic
biomedical sciences
retired NPCC member
self-known photographer
all rounder music lover
a daughter, a friend
let yourself be heard
everyday cravings
sentimental korean dramas
popcorn (salted)
coca-cola with ice
tshirts
mamee
x-men
sleeping
dunkin donuts
starbuck's hot chocolate
baskin robbins
mcdonald's fries
as told by ginger
