Tuesday, May 17, 2005

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OH MY GOD!

Can somebody kill me please?
i'm feeling very miserable right now. I feel very terrible because i got my first C for my daily grade and i scored a D+ for my first understanding.

I wish, i was born smarter!!! i feel so disappointed of myself because i expected better. I feel like, my life has ended and there's nothing much i look forward in the future. My heart has been stabbed into 2, and being squeezed so hard that i can hardly breathe no more. I never saw my life in RP could turn out like this. With the shitty grades, i also feel neglected by my secondary school mates.

Today, i went to Punggol Secondary School to collect my O's certificate, planning to go with my beloved friends, ervy, nashata. But i guess, everyone has their own lives to run. So, i went with my good friend, shannon ong. She's been keeping me company and its been wonderful having her around. Muacks.

i still can't get over the fact that i actually scored a D+ for my first UT. it is really a discouragement for me. I'm really one slack of a person. I've never imagined myself to turn out as one useless, stupeed person. Now, i feel like, committing suicide or just get run down by a car but faith in my religion as well as myself acts as a stopper to me problems. I will never resort to these actions. While i'm writing this, my eyes are producing tears which is uncontrollable. Feelings of the heart is always hard to be suppressed.

I wish i had someone to share my real thoughts with but they don't seem to take me seriously. While i'm listening sum 41 - pieces, i wish i was dead now.



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